right or left, good or bad?

recently so moody.
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heart jump so fas sumtime, jump so slow sumtime.
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m i sick? my mind hide 2 devils.
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1 so positive, 1 so negative.
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both fight all the time.
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Po= kep teling me 2 stay strong, noth is imposs.
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n muz stay hpy, no sadness Ne= kep sayin tht im so tire, ned 2 rest.
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n lonely, y no frens.
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no companion.
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dun pretend 2 b strong.
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i hop 2 b positive, but im realy down wen thk negatively.
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is a very challenge job 2 change positive fr negative.
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i hate 2 pretend.
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tht is nt me.
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hide own feling is nt my style.
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but i hv 2 hide.
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at lis kep a better image 2 frens, 2 family.
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m i realy on track? i fel farer with my close geng.
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yamcha?movie?singing?eat? sem lik no mood at all 2 go out.
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wen sit in room, i lik2 thk.
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thk n thk n thk.
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thk bc my past, my decison, is it on de rite track?? i hide mysf in room, away fr frens, facing computer n lebak~ i wan2 find bc mysf.
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i duno hw 2 get bc mysf sum time.
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tmr is my convo, early morning.
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but din fel excited at all.
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after 2 day training in HSBC cyber, i get 2 kwn alot of new frens.
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but thy r diff branches wit me.
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monday wen bc 2 my position, everythg is new 2 me agan.
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2 days training is abt indction oly.
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damn bore sumtime.
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graduate convo finally, definately hv2 say thx 2 my parent, n family.
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im proud of mysf.
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tmr wil b my gathering day agan , all my relatives n frens r coming.
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wait 2 c u all tmr.
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cheer~